I was wide awake until 5.30am when I finally got the urge to sleep. Until that point I was debating with myself whether to venture out to a 24 hour garage or McDonalds for entertainment.
I went to bed as hubby was waking up and fell asleep before he left around 7.30. I woke up at 11am feeling not too bad!
Today's mood 6/10 but fading; anxiety 5/10.
I have learned that activity promotes a sense of fulfilment and wellbeing which in turn leads to a desire to do more. It's an upward spiral out of depressions grasp. But when you feel the lack of sleep draining your energy it's difficult to get moving.
Yesterday I got on the treadmill (inspired by a friend who used to be overweight running the marathon) and did the first day of the 'couch to 5k' it was agony and I am paying for it today. My thighs, calves as ass are stiff and sore. C25k gets you going with 60 second runs and walking intervals. I am extremely unfit and about 4 stones overweight BUT day one is under my belt and at the time I did feel great :)
So much so that I entered the Race for Life in 10 weeks. I'm also going to a hen party in 14 weeks so I have a good target for losing some weight and starting to feel good about myself. To that end I'm intending to rejoin SW tomorrow and for this reason I will mostly be eating crap today ;)
Update 5pm. Mood gone down the pan 4/10. Anxiety up and energy down.
So tired and grotty feeling - plus I feel pressure. I need to meet a friend, call my boss, book an appointment, get a hair cut, clean my house and I'm also waiting for two deliverys and the outcome of 4 job applications.
Right. What to do to get out of the grump?? Do something useful. I will: empty the litter tray, do a spot of washing up and then sit down with a nice cup of tea. Ha! Now I have written it down I have no choice!
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