Day off

After talking to my boss last week and explaining that I'm struggling I was then 45 minutes late on Tuesday and had to ask for today off.

I'm so tired. Lethargy. I'm so slowed down.  Walking,  talking, thinking. I am having trouble processing information - no matter how much coffee I drink!

But I had a minor success last night when I went to watch practice.  I almost took my skates but decided not to put too much pressure on myself.

I really went because I promised one of the girls a hug. She is also really down, but battling through and I admire her. I made her and another girl a little knitted heart to cheer them up and that gentle awkward kindness eased my pain a bit too.

Now today I'm flummoxed again as I desperately need to see the doctor and get a hair cut but picking up the phone, getting dressed and going out seems just too much :/

Better daze

Friday morning I felt immeasurably better. I felt refreshed when I woke up - that never happens!  And I got to work early and with a spring in my step.

But I then ate a whole load of cake and by 4.30 felt sluggish, cloudy and crap.

Today is Saturday.  I woke at 10.30. Got up begrudgingly for an hour then accidentally went back to bed and slept for another 3 hours!! Now I feel lousy (I could have stayed there all day) but I forced myself up. Next I must force myself to shower and dress.

I fail

I've had some minor ups and downs. I made it to London ans had a lovely wknd. I also made it to watch some practice last week. Then I got the dreaded lurgy and now I can't get going.

Second day off. Really letting the team down as its a busy week and ranging into absenteeism :(

Just so so sleepy. Definitely a SAD sufferer. So bought some vitamin D and more Berocca. Come on Laurie let's get through the winter! 6 weeks til xmas!
Anxiety 2/3. Depression 5. Lethargy 8.