Not a friend. Depression is not my buddy my pal.
I've been floating on denial for a few months now. I struggled through winter with the help of increased meds and light therapy. The light therapy helped so much I was convinced that I only had SAD and come springtime I would be all better. Nope. Not the case.
I'm struggling again - though far less than last winter when I had 4-5 months off work, this time I am managing through odd days here and there. But I feel like shit.
The worst thing today is the brain fog. I was so confused when I woke up. I didn't know what day or time it was or if my dreams were real. A work colleague texted to see if I was ok - I could hardly speak. It's very difficult to explain to someone how brain fog can destroy your ability to be you! I sound stoned, stupid, incoherent and that is how I feel.
Jeebus. 35 years old. 13 years of this condition and I'm still learning. I still don't have the answers.
Anxiety: 1, Depression: 5, Lethargy: 6
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